8 more days..

I'm so so worried... 8 more days to go for my 1st exam paper, steel paper lol.. hmm, and I have 2 technical theory, which make me even more stress. something which I wish I can just crap in the exam but sadly, it's technical. either u know it or u don't.

hmm, anyway, 10 days to go before he's back also. miss him so much.. :) he got the best of me. :)
can't wait for 20th to come. duh...


to perfection.. here i come,

jen

:)

We were as one, babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine
Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
Cause I know in my heart,
Our love will never die,

I ain't gonna cry, no
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave,
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably, you'll be back again

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Don't you know you can't escape me
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong

I know that you'll be back,
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder
I know that you'll be right back,
It's only a matter of time
Time

The day before Christmas..

It's sad to think that I'll be all alone for this Christmas. He's been away for 2 weeks but he's been calling. And exams are near, am I the only one worry bout exams? 3 weeks study weeks I ain't sure to say it's too long or too short. The lonely time of mine here is creeping me out I guess. A year ago, I was in Genting counting down for Xmas with my mum. Miss that day. hmm, another 2 weeks he'll be back and another 3 weeks, I'll be back in kch. can't wait. But the exam is coming nearer.. sigh.. anyway, merry xmas n happy holidays..

xoxo, jen

haha..

busy busy..

For the rest of this month, plus xmas holidays and new year, I'm gonna be so busy.. Exams start on 8th and ends on for 19th Jan. 3 weeks are practically not enough to cover all. So, I'll be so addicted to caffeine till then. I wish I have more time to study. Hopefully my grades can be maintain. Keeping my finger cross till I'm in the exam hall.

N he's away now in Sydney.. lol.. Somemore for christmas. Guess my christmas wish can't come true after all. :( N, he'll only be back during mid of my exam. Sigh.. I guess I feel funny sometimes. Not talking to my pillow but to my notes haha.. Jk.. anyway, be back soon. hopefully.

till now..

xoxo, jen

One wish for christmas

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true...
All I want for Christmas
Is you...

I don't need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you...
You baby

I won't ask for much this Christmas
I won't even wish for snow
I'm just gonna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe
I won't make a list and send it
To the North Pole for Saint Nick
I won't even stay awake to
Hear those magic reindeer click
'Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding on to me so tight
What more can I do
Baby all I want for Christmas is you
You...

All the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere
And the sound of children's
Laughter fills the air
And everyone is singing
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won't you bring me the one I really need -
won't you please bring my baby to me...

Oh I don't want a lot for Christmas
This is all I'm asking for
I just want to see baby
Standing right outside my door
Oh I just want him for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is
You...

All I want for Christmas is you baby...

13/12/2008

I'm having problems with my group design projects for steel structures. Difficulties in interpreting Eurocode. Struggling hard with it. Why the institution of Civil Of Engineering of the Europe Country would like to make Civil engineers life harder. lol... BS code is good enough.. lolx.

Anyway, it's been 2 days he's been away. 29 days to go. Or maybe more..
Why am i feeling this way? Been thinking a lot bout him lately. Miss the time that we'd spent together.

"No vacancy.Only emptiness when you're not beside me. Without your love and you by my side, I'm homeless. "


haih.. anyway, I'm having my final soon. Less than a month and I realize I know nothing. So i have practically a week to study for every subject.

I have Nothing to fear in this world

There's nothing to fear --- you're as good as the best,
As strong as the mightiest, too.
You can win in every battle or test;
For there's no one just like you.
There's only one you in the world today;
So nobody else, you see,
Can do your work in as fine a way:
You're the only you there'll be !

So face the world, and all life is yours
To conquer and love and live:
And you'll find the happiness that endures
In just the measure you give;
There's nothing too good for you to possess,
Nor heights where you cannot go:
Your power is more than belief or guess ---
It is something you have to know.

There is nothing to fear --- you can and you will.
For you are the invincible you.
Set your foot on the highest hill ---
There's nothing you cannot do.

My 21st Birthday ..

I had my 21st Birthday dinner at the Chilies, Midvalley. Although my family can't spend it with me, but HE made me feel special and I feel that I'm the luckiest girl in the whole world. I know he tried his best to made everything possible and just to see me smile.There's no other person I would like to spend this special day with. :)

Triple play..

Salmon fish with rice and veggies.

Fagitas

On my Birthday, there are also special performances by the clowns at Midvalley. 1st class performance indeed. There's a ballerina dancing also. so gracefully.. with pointe.. :) which reminds me of my dancing time years ago. :) something I am still dreaming to pursue back again some day.

Candle blowing.. :)

Cheese and choc cake, which I love...

One of my fave, cheese cake..

Penang and KL trip..

Pics of us at Sunway (outside te Scream Park)
Dedrick.Ah Yi, Ah Fung,me and Frans

Thanks to dedrick, I got some of the pictures from the trip. While the rest are still with my aunt and cousins. Haven't have the chance to get it from them as they are back in Kuching. Anyway, here are some pics taken at different places.

me and mummy dearest.. :)

with my older cousin, Ah Sze

Naughty Eric.

Dedrick with naughty eric..

At Pavilion...

Dedrick and me.

Huge Christmas Tree Outside Pavilion.

A month from now...

A month from now.. I will complete 2 papers for my final. hmm, he'll be back from aussie. I have 9 more days to go before I can go back for chinese new year.

And as for now till the expected time, I'll be struggling really hard for my 4 papers, which is killing me. HArder than I have expected. Anyway, missing him cause he'll be away for holidays for a month. ANd aza aza fighting for my exam.

PS. I miss you (for my elephant)

Nice quotes to get me motivated...

you have the best brain the world is looking for"

"Most people give up just when they're about to achieve success. They quit on the one yard line. They give up at the last minute

of the game one foot from a winning touchdown." -H. Ross Perot

"Determine what specific goal you want to achieve. Then dedicate yourself to its attainment with unswerving singleness of purpose,

the trenchant zeal of a crusader." -Paul J. Meyer

CAST OF CHARACTERS

I Can't is a quitter,

I Don't Know is laziness,

I Wish I Could is a wisher,

I Might is waking up,

I Will Try is on his feet,

I Can is on his way,

I Will is at work,

I Did is now the boss.

-Earl Cassel

"You can have anything you want--if you want it badly enough. You can be anything you want to be, do anything you set out to

accomplish if you hold to that desire with singleness of purpose." -William Adams

"Success seems to be largely a matter of hanging on after others

have let go." -William Feather

Turning 21..

Well, it does really hit me hard to realize that I'm reaching adulthood in about 12 hours time. Times flies.. I remembered when I was a little girl, enjoying every moment in my life by trying to play with my barbie dolls and dreams to achieve something big. Well, so far, it seems that I always get whatever I want, but I'd yet to earn money of my own.

There's goes a few chapters in my life, which I'd yet to written it out. I'm glad of what I have now. A beautiful loving family and someone who cares heaps bout me are in my life right now, advising me and telling me what should I do. He cares bout me more than any guys I'd known so far. In another few days time, he'll be going off to visit his family while I'll be struggling hard for my finals. But he has ensure that I'm in a comfortable zone before he's going off. And, happy thing is he is going to celebrate my birthday tomorrow. :) Keeping my finger cross to hope that we'll be together if that's what our fate will be.

Though my family can't be here for my birthday. But, my parent had brought me gold bracelet for my 21 birthday. Words just can't describe how happy and lucky I am to have parent of mine. And 2 big bros, who are still close to my parent although they have their family of their own.

All I dream of is to have a family of my own one day. Perhaps, in 5 to 6 years time.

Beautiful Message from George Carlin

Isn't it amazing that George Carlin - comedian of the 70's and 80's - could write something so very eloquent...and so very appropriate.

A Message by George Carlin:

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider Freeways , but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.

We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.

We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things.

We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete...

Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever.

Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.

Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.

Remember, to say, 'I love you' to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.

Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again.

Give time to love, give time to speak! And give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.

AND ALWAYS REMEMBER:

Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

Supposingly...

I'm back.. :) I was supposed to go for holidays in Bangkok last week but it was canceled last minutes due to the shut down of the BAngkok Airport. I was supposed to fly there with my family, but on the day itself the airport was closed down due to the anti government protest.. Well, in the end, as my family flew all the way from Kuching, they had decided to just stay in Malaysia aka KL for the whole weeks.
Lucky thing we did not go, as those who were there were stranded there for few days. Instead of BAngkok, we'd end up going to Penang for holiday. We used bus to get there as it was a last minutes thing. It was really fun as there are 12 of us, who went there. (include my mum, my aunt and her husband with 3 kids, my other uncle and aunt and their 2 daughters who are around my age)

well, will update the pics from the trip soon after I get it from my aunt and cousins. :)

Melaka Trip...

I went to Melaka with him last sat. :) We went with his uni mates. 6 guys and 2 girls.We stayed at A Famosa which is around 30 mins drive to Melaka town. I'd tried the satay celup, which is something like lok lok cook in a pot of satay sauce. And besides that, I'd tried the famous chicken rice ball, chicken rice crumpled into a ball shape. Tastes great.

During the day, we went to Animal Safari at A Famosa, feeling like a kid especially watching the elephant shows. I am amazed by what the elephants can do. They can sit and cycle. Believe me. It is so amazing.

We also went to Jongke Street at night. Nothing much to see actually, something like pasar malam only.

Hot chicks!~

At the chicken farm..

This is one of the most touching moment when we visits the Monkey Island at the Animal Safari. Felt so touched by the parenting skills that the monkeys have, had made me think that even animals have the sense of responsibilities towards their babies. see how the baby monkey hang on the back of it's mum. :) They are good examples to motivate me to be a good mummy when I have family. :)

One of the animal show I'd ever went is the elephant show, the elephant can cycle, play netball and basketballs. With what they can do, I'm really amazed. Seriously, esp the baby elephant are so cute.. that explains why I'm so in love with elephant. haha..One of the funny question that he asked me is "Do any part of me looked like an elephant?" hehe.. :)

Besides that, another nice show is the multianimal shows, the orang utans are so funny. and naughty.. hehe.. There's one part that it was playing with the animal taker and when he pretend to shot the orang utan, it pretend to drop dead. haha..

Then, the next day, we went to the water world. It was very disappointing due to the limited games that they have. I'd tried the 4 storey high water slide. I was so scared at a point when it's my turn. But he give me strength by telling me it's going to be alright. I'd believed him when he tells me that it's going to be fine, everything's gonna be alright.

Well, that's my Melaka trip.. :)

Tons of Assignments...

I have tons of assignment lining up for me... Total of 4 assignment from different subjects.. Panicking now... Submission date: 2 weeks from now... Work load is hectic.. trying hard to solve some questions from the assignments so my holidays for this weekend can start tomorrow.. can't wait... AS for now, struggling lol... Aza Aza Fighting....

PIcs from Langkawi Trip..

I was browsing through HIS mobile and I was lucky to stumble across some of the pics that we actually took from our langkawi trip.. LAngkawi is a DUTY free tourist area.. So there we have .. LIQOurs.. :) The Liqours there are super cheap compare to other areas in Malaysia...

left to right.... there we have it.. malibu, vodka, sakae, kampai, aud wine, kahula, johnny walker green label and sappora beer. At the seafood restaurant...

The seafood there are also very cheap and fresh. i love the prawns there (tasty).

Happy Birthday Bro...

Just wanna wish happy birthday to my second bro.. :)

My weekend!`

I've been out the whole day on sat with Him and our friend, Andy. It was fun chilling out even it's only 3 of us. We went to few places. Andy was looking for gifts for his nephew. Remind me of my nephew and my new born baby nephew..

My BAby Nephew, Baby Gerald... can't wait to see him on cny

We had a nice dinner at TGI.F which andy told me it stands for Thank God It's Friday.. Wonder it's true or Not.. hehe.. The food was nicer compared to Tony Roma's. :) And the price is kinda reasonable.

Andy lol..

It's weekdays again tomorrow, which make me feel moody again. Fun times always seem to past so fast. I've yet to earn money for myself, so It's not fun at all sitting in the classroom. Can't wait to meet Him again.

And, I'm missing my hometown's food. Esp Sio Bee.. Hmmm.. sad sad.. can't wait for my mum to bring it over for me though.. 23 days to go.

Today!~

Today is a winding road that's taking me to places that I didn't want to go
Today in the blink of an eye I'm holding on to something and I do not know why
I tried

I tried to read between the lines
I tried to look in your eyes
I want a simple explanation
For what I'm feeling inside
I gotta find a way out
Maybe there's a way out

Yeah I'm walking on a tightrope
I'm wrapped up in vines
I think we'll make it out
But you just gotta give me time
Strike me down with lightning
Let me feel you in my veins
I wanna let you know how much I miss you when you are not here

Public Transports

Ever since I came for my studies last year, I become a frequent travellers of public transports here. Although the services are not as good as the one they have in Singapore, but no complains can be made though. With the locations of my uni, which is practically in the mid of nowhere, should be called Nothingham instead of Nottingham lol, I'm pretty much blessed with the existence of my uni bus services, which the uni provide for us for free although it's actually included in my uni fees, which is very expensive if to be compare locally. My uni buses operate everyday with the frequency trips of every one or two hour, from the local train station ( 45 mins to or from my uni) to my campus.

The local trains, known as KTM here, looked a bit old but they played a very important role to get me to the city of Kuala Lumpur. EVenthough the whole journey takes around one and a half hour from my campus to KL, but I's get used to it. :)

As for the local buses, they are mostly not on time lol.. but the bus ticket is considered cheap which is around rm2 to take you anywhere for the whole day without regard to where you wanna go on the same day.

As for the taxis, hmm.. Malaysia has the worst taxi drivers on average.. It's hard to find a taxi driver, who drive following meter. Most of them are like gangster on roads, driving recklessly and trying to slaughter you by charging you expensively. But there are still some out there, who are nice and charge accordingly. So, it's all depend on your lucks.

But nevertheless, I'm still glad that the public transports is quite efficient. Without them , I'll be blowing my budget and stuck in the Nothingham every week lol.. Oopss.. It's Nottingham.. :)

Yeah, Weekend again!~

Days come and goes so fast.. I hardly have the chance to stop and to breathe and feel my surrounding.. I went to the trial class for yoga yesterday and now my whole body are in pain. I can feel my body muscle pain from all the stretching.. esp my back muscle.. It's even harder than ballet.. Miss those days dancing to the rythm and the music..

I went for lunch today nearby my campus. I had a tomyam beehon for lunch and it's one of my fave. But for dinner just now, I'd only ate biscuits with milk. Too lazy to cook. I feel so weak inside. Blaming the yoga session. This has given me a tickling time bomb that I had not been regular in exercising, which is bad. I hate gym and workouts using machine. I prefer dancing more. It's more alive.

Studies are getting more worse. Perhaps the pain of my shoulder muscle reflects how stressful I am without me knowing it at all.

Heard that the gold price drops.. :) I'm hoping to save some money to buy gold.

With the location of my uni, which is like in the mid of nowhere or in the jungle. I wish to be at home now since my mum is telling me they are all having kfc and pizza for supper. And I'm stuck here listening to how nice and tasty their food are. sick huh...but tmr's friday, I'm planning to cook fish again. :) can't wait. It's one of my best dish that I can cook. HE said it tested like restaurant one. SO happy.

A very nice song for HIM!~

With every appearance by you, blinding my eyes,
I can hardly remember the last time I felt like I do.
You're an angel disguised.

And you're lying real still,
but your heart beat is fast just like mine.
And the movie's long over,
that's three that have passed, one more's fine.

Will you stay awake for me?
I don't wanna miss anything
I don't wanna miss anything
I will share the air I breathe,
I'll give you my heart on a string,
I just don't wanna miss anything.

I'm trying real hard not to shake. I'm biting my tongue,
but I'm feeling alive and with every breathe that I take,
I feel like I've won. You're my key to survival.

And if it's a hero you want,
I can save you. Just stay here.
Your whispers are priceless.
Your breathe, it is dear. So please stay near.

Will you stay awake for me?
I don't wanna miss anything
I don't wanna miss anything
I will share the air I breathe,
I'll give you my heart on a string,
I just don't wanna miss anything.

Say my name. I just want to hear you.
Say my name. So I know it's true.
You're changing me. You're changing me.
You showed me how to live.
So just say. So just say,

That you'll stay awake for me.
I don't wanna miss anything.
I don't wanna miss anything.
I will share the air I breathe,
I'll give you my heart on a string,
I just don't wanna miss anything

Dance Classes

Well, my uni dance club are offering dance classes. :) I'm planning to take up belly dance and yoga classes. It'll start this week so can't wait.

Here it goes again....

It's only been 4th week of my semester. This will probably be my last year in engineering.. hopefully... This has been pushing me on and off esp before exam, which normally make me feel panic. But for once, I've already start to feel panic in a way even it's just the beginning of the semester. It's time to push myself again to the very limit of mine. Arghh.. Weekend always seems to past so fast and my works are beginning to stock up and with all the pure civil subjects, it's very tough.. Lol.. can't seem to answer any of the exercise. Wish that I'm a small little girl again, where I don't have to worry bout anything in my life. Anyway, I'll always tell myself to smile and cheer up! Life is a rollercoaster..

Part of this, I'm missing someone really badly now. He's now on the way back. Perhaps in the train. Whenever I'm with him, all my stress will be gone. Ain't know why. Maybe he likes to cheer me up with stuff that he always do. :) He just cook a fish and ayam kampung for me cause I'm feeling kind of weak lately. Thoughtful, heh.. It's just a plus of him for his talent and passion in cooking. A very loving, traditional guy is all I need. :)

Tuesday!~

Here I am.. Waiting for the next class. I had 9 hours plus of sleep last night but I'm still feeling very tired and sleepy. Something is wrong with me. Now I have 3 hours break in between classes, which make me sick of waiting. Plus the 2 hours class later will be Geotechnical again. I can't wait to go back to my room for a nap. It's another 3 days before weekend. Can't wait..

Settlement??

Lol... WHy is Geotechnical Engineering so hard? I couldn't get it. I try to read the 1st chapter of it regarding foundations and I feel so lost in the jungle. All the equations and charts. LOL.. I really admire my lecturer who has a PHD from NUS lol... Genius~!~ haih...

Happy~

I couldn't be anymore happy than this. His results for last semester came out and I'm proud of him for achieving the best that he can. He had worked for it and he is definitely deserve this. :) Nyway, more exams to come before graduate.

For what I had seen and gone through, getting gOOD grades is Not about giving up the fun things in your life. :) it's bout how you manage your time and the amount of effort you put in in that limited time. So, study smart works!~!~ :) ANd bla bla bla.. I'm so proud of him. :) AZA AZA Fighting my elephant!~ :)

updates!~!~

Well, that's it... I had decided to take the civil engineering core subjects for this semester for my optional, which are Geotechnical Engineering, Pavement Engineering and Steel Design. So total up with another 2 compulsary subjects, I had 5 papers to sit for this semester. Life is never easy. Gotta work hard for it.. SO, here I go .again... AsZA AZA FIGHTING!~!~s Light will eventually come after darkness.. who knows what future will lies in 10 years time, 20 years tme.. I feel that time past faster the more older we get. When and how can I be successful?? hmmm...

Anyway, it's friday today and I had just got my internet connections for my room right after few visits and complains. From what I learned from the complains, the lady working there is never responsible.. haih..as usual NINJA.. lol...

Well, here are some of my continuation pictures from Bukit Tinggi. :)


The entrance fee per person to bukit tinggi is rm16. There are few places of interest there. The rabbit farm, Japanese Tea House, the fort ( not sure bout the name) , botanical gardens and others. It is a nice place to visit but the only problem to get there is there are no buses, unless you go in a group as in tour or you can just rent a car from KL to get there.

Showing one of our great assets.. :)


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Why does he look so happy ?? lol

So that's it.. The pics of mine and my friends to bukit tinggi.. Well, it's almost 4 pm now.. Gotta go and prepare the food to cook. Sweet and sour tilapia and tom yam fried rice. :) till then.. xoxo, jen

Japan Wonder!~!~

Recently, I got to know some Indonesian friends and we had rent a car to BUkit Tinggi. It is situated near to Genting Hilghland. It took us around an hour from Kelana Jaya to reach there. They are very friendly and they looked like japanese. Aren't they?? We went to the Japanese Tea House and rented Japanese costumes to wear. Here are some of the pictures taken. After that, we went to look out point in KL. Will update the second chapter of the pics soon.

Guess which of the above is me??

Tadah!~!~




Everyone seem to be very happy. Smiling all the time. :)

Budi, Angel, Delia and James

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