Going Home...

I'd finished my last paper yeaterday. I'm not sure bout how well or how bad is it going to be. So, I'd decided not to face the outcome until the day that I need to face it. I'm feeling super duper excited today cause I'm going back today to Kuching. I'd been waiting for this day to come for the past 2 months. It seemed so long and finally, the day finally arrive. :)

And, dad is gonna has his birthday dinner buffet at home. Mum told me that he's been iniviting lots of people, mostly relatives and I can't wait to see my baby nephew and nephew. :)

But before my friend send me to airport, we'll be going for tom yam again. :) love it..

gtg will be updating this in kuching.

xoxo,
jen

haPPY!~

I finished my 2nd paper this morning. And me and my freind head off to the nicest tom yam shop around. LOve it though it's spicy. Anyway, it's less than 24 hours and I can get to meet him again. So, I feel like a little kid now. Excited. Like the excitement over ice creams. hehe. But the feeling is more than that I guess..

BUt yet, I have 2 more papers to go, which is one on thursday and another one on monday. So, gotta study again. sigh.. But today's paper I guess it's not as hard that I'd predicted. It's just the time constraint, and how much I can write within that given time. hopefully.

:) I can't wait for exams to be over and to be back in kuching. hehe

One paper done..

I'd finished one paper for exam and I've yet to complete another 3. One will be on this sat. panic panic.. memorizing paper some more.. hopefully can la.. I can't wait for him to be back hehe.. need a power hug very badly now. hehe.. anyway, back to my battle.. aza aza fighting..

xoxo
jen

The Battle Begin...

haha.. what a funny title that I put lol.. Feel that I'm a general from some ancient Chinese Dynasty. Oh yeah, Mulan.. hehe.. well, today's my exam.. It's like 6 hours to go. Doing last minutes review now.. hopefully, everything will go smoothly. Pray hard. This is my 1st paper and I have another 3 to go after this.

He'll be back in between lol, can't wait. I've been thinking of him lol.. A lot.. seriously, a lot. Wonder whether if he's also thinking of me? *Wink* hehe..

tmr's the day...

it's like 16 hours before my 1st paper. and now, i'm sitting in front of my laptop.. should have sleep by now. Time will seems to past so past starting tomorrow.

my mum's will be going to sg with her friends tomorrow. Nice ah. I wanna join but sadly I have exam. so smart of her to pick the day of my exam to go. haih..

Nyway, gtg now.. wanna sleep. to have a gOOD night rest. tata,

xoxo

jen

Moving on...

I lie awake and try so hard
Not to think of you.
But who can decide what they dream?
And dream I do.

I believe in you
I'll give up everything just to find you.
I have to be with you
To live, to breathe--
You're taking over me.

Have you forgotten all I know and all we had?
You saw me mourning my love for you
And touched my hand.
I knew you loved me then.

I look in the mirror and see your face.
If I look deep enough,
So many things inside that
Just like you, are taking over...


I believe in you

So near but yet so far..

I'd realize one thing, with lack of communications things can go downhill. I've been guessing stuff lately.. thinking and hoping things work out. Then this question come across my mind. What if I'm the only one on the other side trying so hard. I guess there's never gonna be a clap if there's only one hand clapping to the air. Well, things are getting much clearer now. I've been sick. Just feeling well today. I was thinking maybe I need a talk. At least someone shows me that he cares.

Do you ever wait for someone to reply your msg for like few hours and he only get back to you after few long hours. It's killing I know. The feeling of waiting. And whenever the message or caller tone rings, you realized that's it's not even him, which makes the whole story even sadder. well, gotta move on. That's what I'm trying to tell myself. But it's been killing me slowly. Though I knew the impact of it to me. I just couldn't help to tell myself that everything is gonna be fine.. So, I hope things will be fine.

not well..

4 days to exam and i'm not feeling well.. sore throat and feverish. hope to be better on exam day.. gtg.. to have a good rest.. like a bear hibernating i guess..

5 days..

Why am i counting days to go for exam.. haha.. Guess that i just can't wait to get over it no matter what. it's too much to handle. I've been a slow pig these days. I'm so bored to be honest. Can't possibly being in my room all days. lol. And I had decided to watch movie. few movies. hehe.

I thought studies can keep us busy. haha. BUt end up most of time i think BOut food. haha.. red bean bun. It's so nice. haha. I'm into wholegrain bread also these days also. haha..

stupid huh...

nyway, at least I get to express how i feel in this blog rather than talking to the pillow. haha.

5 days to go for Exam. I think should be alright. I guess the chinese quote is correct. 70 percent depoends on our hardwork but 30 percent is still depending on god. Do u think so? I wish I'm really pushing myself the hardest now. If I am, it's just funny that I don't even realize I am. lol..

haha.. I feel that I'm starting to blog bout crap now. Before things getting more creepier, I better log off.. haha

gtg then.. to perfection again, here I go..

xoxo
kisses and hugs
jen