8 more days..

I'm so so worried... 8 more days to go for my 1st exam paper, steel paper lol.. hmm, and I have 2 technical theory, which make me even more stress. something which I wish I can just crap in the exam but sadly, it's technical. either u know it or u don't.

hmm, anyway, 10 days to go before he's back also. miss him so much.. :) he got the best of me. :)
can't wait for 20th to come. duh...


to perfection.. here i come,

jen

:)

We were as one, babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine
Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
Cause I know in my heart,
Our love will never die,

I ain't gonna cry, no
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave,
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably, you'll be back again

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Don't you know you can't escape me
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong

I know that you'll be back,
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder
I know that you'll be right back,
It's only a matter of time
Time

The day before Christmas..

It's sad to think that I'll be all alone for this Christmas. He's been away for 2 weeks but he's been calling. And exams are near, am I the only one worry bout exams? 3 weeks study weeks I ain't sure to say it's too long or too short. The lonely time of mine here is creeping me out I guess. A year ago, I was in Genting counting down for Xmas with my mum. Miss that day. hmm, another 2 weeks he'll be back and another 3 weeks, I'll be back in kch. can't wait. But the exam is coming nearer.. sigh.. anyway, merry xmas n happy holidays..

xoxo, jen

haha..

busy busy..

For the rest of this month, plus xmas holidays and new year, I'm gonna be so busy.. Exams start on 8th and ends on for 19th Jan. 3 weeks are practically not enough to cover all. So, I'll be so addicted to caffeine till then. I wish I have more time to study. Hopefully my grades can be maintain. Keeping my finger cross till I'm in the exam hall.

N he's away now in Sydney.. lol.. Somemore for christmas. Guess my christmas wish can't come true after all. :( N, he'll only be back during mid of my exam. Sigh.. I guess I feel funny sometimes. Not talking to my pillow but to my notes haha.. Jk.. anyway, be back soon. hopefully.

till now..

xoxo, jen

One wish for christmas

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true...
All I want for Christmas
Is you...

I don't need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you...
You baby

I won't ask for much this Christmas
I won't even wish for snow
I'm just gonna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe
I won't make a list and send it
To the North Pole for Saint Nick
I won't even stay awake to
Hear those magic reindeer click
'Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding on to me so tight
What more can I do
Baby all I want for Christmas is you
You...

All the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere
And the sound of children's
Laughter fills the air
And everyone is singing
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won't you bring me the one I really need -
won't you please bring my baby to me...

Oh I don't want a lot for Christmas
This is all I'm asking for
I just want to see baby
Standing right outside my door
Oh I just want him for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is
You...

All I want for Christmas is you baby...

13/12/2008

I'm having problems with my group design projects for steel structures. Difficulties in interpreting Eurocode. Struggling hard with it. Why the institution of Civil Of Engineering of the Europe Country would like to make Civil engineers life harder. lol... BS code is good enough.. lolx.

Anyway, it's been 2 days he's been away. 29 days to go. Or maybe more..
Why am i feeling this way? Been thinking a lot bout him lately. Miss the time that we'd spent together.

"No vacancy.Only emptiness when you're not beside me. Without your love and you by my side, I'm homeless. "


haih.. anyway, I'm having my final soon. Less than a month and I realize I know nothing. So i have practically a week to study for every subject.

I have Nothing to fear in this world

There's nothing to fear --- you're as good as the best,
As strong as the mightiest, too.
You can win in every battle or test;
For there's no one just like you.
There's only one you in the world today;
So nobody else, you see,
Can do your work in as fine a way:
You're the only you there'll be !

So face the world, and all life is yours
To conquer and love and live:
And you'll find the happiness that endures
In just the measure you give;
There's nothing too good for you to possess,
Nor heights where you cannot go:
Your power is more than belief or guess ---
It is something you have to know.

There is nothing to fear --- you can and you will.
For you are the invincible you.
Set your foot on the highest hill ---
There's nothing you cannot do.

My 21st Birthday ..

I had my 21st Birthday dinner at the Chilies, Midvalley. Although my family can't spend it with me, but HE made me feel special and I feel that I'm the luckiest girl in the whole world. I know he tried his best to made everything possible and just to see me smile.There's no other person I would like to spend this special day with. :)

Triple play..

Salmon fish with rice and veggies.

Fagitas

On my Birthday, there are also special performances by the clowns at Midvalley. 1st class performance indeed. There's a ballerina dancing also. so gracefully.. with pointe.. :) which reminds me of my dancing time years ago. :) something I am still dreaming to pursue back again some day.

Candle blowing.. :)

Cheese and choc cake, which I love...

One of my fave, cheese cake..

Penang and KL trip..

Pics of us at Sunway (outside te Scream Park)
Dedrick.Ah Yi, Ah Fung,me and Frans

Thanks to dedrick, I got some of the pictures from the trip. While the rest are still with my aunt and cousins. Haven't have the chance to get it from them as they are back in Kuching. Anyway, here are some pics taken at different places.

me and mummy dearest.. :)

with my older cousin, Ah Sze

Naughty Eric.

Dedrick with naughty eric..

At Pavilion...

Dedrick and me.

Huge Christmas Tree Outside Pavilion.

A month from now...

A month from now.. I will complete 2 papers for my final. hmm, he'll be back from aussie. I have 9 more days to go before I can go back for chinese new year.

And as for now till the expected time, I'll be struggling really hard for my 4 papers, which is killing me. HArder than I have expected. Anyway, missing him cause he'll be away for holidays for a month. ANd aza aza fighting for my exam.

PS. I miss you (for my elephant)

Nice quotes to get me motivated...

you have the best brain the world is looking for"

"Most people give up just when they're about to achieve success. They quit on the one yard line. They give up at the last minute

of the game one foot from a winning touchdown." -H. Ross Perot

"Determine what specific goal you want to achieve. Then dedicate yourself to its attainment with unswerving singleness of purpose,

the trenchant zeal of a crusader." -Paul J. Meyer

CAST OF CHARACTERS

I Can't is a quitter,

I Don't Know is laziness,

I Wish I Could is a wisher,

I Might is waking up,

I Will Try is on his feet,

I Can is on his way,

I Will is at work,

I Did is now the boss.

-Earl Cassel

"You can have anything you want--if you want it badly enough. You can be anything you want to be, do anything you set out to

accomplish if you hold to that desire with singleness of purpose." -William Adams

"Success seems to be largely a matter of hanging on after others

have let go." -William Feather

Turning 21..

Well, it does really hit me hard to realize that I'm reaching adulthood in about 12 hours time. Times flies.. I remembered when I was a little girl, enjoying every moment in my life by trying to play with my barbie dolls and dreams to achieve something big. Well, so far, it seems that I always get whatever I want, but I'd yet to earn money of my own.

There's goes a few chapters in my life, which I'd yet to written it out. I'm glad of what I have now. A beautiful loving family and someone who cares heaps bout me are in my life right now, advising me and telling me what should I do. He cares bout me more than any guys I'd known so far. In another few days time, he'll be going off to visit his family while I'll be struggling hard for my finals. But he has ensure that I'm in a comfortable zone before he's going off. And, happy thing is he is going to celebrate my birthday tomorrow. :) Keeping my finger cross to hope that we'll be together if that's what our fate will be.

Though my family can't be here for my birthday. But, my parent had brought me gold bracelet for my 21 birthday. Words just can't describe how happy and lucky I am to have parent of mine. And 2 big bros, who are still close to my parent although they have their family of their own.

All I dream of is to have a family of my own one day. Perhaps, in 5 to 6 years time.

Beautiful Message from George Carlin

Isn't it amazing that George Carlin - comedian of the 70's and 80's - could write something so very eloquent...and so very appropriate.

A Message by George Carlin:

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider Freeways , but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.

We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.

We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things.

We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete...

Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever.

Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.

Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.

Remember, to say, 'I love you' to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.

Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again.

Give time to love, give time to speak! And give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.

AND ALWAYS REMEMBER:

Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

Supposingly...

I'm back.. :) I was supposed to go for holidays in Bangkok last week but it was canceled last minutes due to the shut down of the BAngkok Airport. I was supposed to fly there with my family, but on the day itself the airport was closed down due to the anti government protest.. Well, in the end, as my family flew all the way from Kuching, they had decided to just stay in Malaysia aka KL for the whole weeks.
Lucky thing we did not go, as those who were there were stranded there for few days. Instead of BAngkok, we'd end up going to Penang for holiday. We used bus to get there as it was a last minutes thing. It was really fun as there are 12 of us, who went there. (include my mum, my aunt and her husband with 3 kids, my other uncle and aunt and their 2 daughters who are around my age)

well, will update the pics from the trip soon after I get it from my aunt and cousins. :)