hmm..

I can't find the appropriate words to describe this post. Nyway, just wanna drop by n let him know I miss him so much. He means a lot to me. He's my one and only elephant. hehe..

I confess that sometimes I'm like a roller coaster. There's ups and downs bout my feeling. Emo freak argh.. I'm so used to call him names that he hates. but still he forgive me n treat me better. I feel so bad bout it at times but I'm used to be so manja to him.. hehe

I do miss the time we had together. Really. I can't wait to meet him again in nov. :)

Love him lots,
jen.....

2 is better than 1

I remember what you wore on the day I fall in love with u,
I finally took the courage to take the first step,
You came into my life and I thought,
"Hey, you know, this could be something that I'm actually seeking for",
I was lost until I met you,
Cause everything you do and words you say,
You know that it all takes my breath away,
And now I'm left with nothing,
When you are far away,
It makes me restless to be without you,
I remember every look upon your face,
The way you roll your eyes,
The way you taste,
You make it hard for me to breath,
Cause when I close my eyes and drift away,
I think of you and I know everything's okay,
I'm finally now believing,
Maybe it's true,
That I can't live without you,
Maybe two is better than one,
There's so much time,
To figure out the rest of my life,
But I'll figure it out,
When it's all said and done,
But now i know,
Two is better than one
With Me and You...

Mid Autumn Festival...

Sorry for this super duper late post.. :) I'd celebrated mid autumn festival at home.. :) with my family.. everyone made it.. my grandma, mum, aunties, uncles, bros, sis in laws, my cousins and my family friends. It was actually fun that my whole family as in me, my 2 bros and their families went shopping together at boulevard the day before the festival.

There's no doubt that my little cousins and nephews are obsessed with the lantern. Even my mum n sis in law played. haha

Whatever it'll be...

I have 2 weeks left in kch. Part of me misses what I have here while the other half make me feel so excited about the upcoming journey of my life.

I felt up and down a lot these days. I'm yet to understand how couple actually decided to get married. I know mine won't happened in at least 3 to 5 years. But being in a long distance relationship actually makes it harder especially the idd rate is super expensive calling from one country to another. Although technology are so advance these day with the existence of MSN and Skype, however, at times it needs the willingness of the 2 person to spend some time to communicate.

I'd realize how importance I am to him. As a rabbit myself, I'm trying to learn the fact of he's of the zodiac of rabbit too and this explains why family always come 1st to him. I actually don't hope so much from him anymore. I think if we are meant to be together, we'll be.

Btw, I'd found nice quote to comfort myself..

" Happiness is like a butterfly. The more u chase it, the more it will elude u. But if u turn ur attention to other things, it will come and sit softly on ur shoulder. "

not enough??

I've mixed feeling about everything. From everything surrounds my life. I know it I'm very lucky to have everything that some other people dying to wish for to come true. yeah, I''m feeling really lucky to have such a loving family, a loving bf who gives ways to me and etc..

Now, all that left for me to do is to appreciate every moment I have with them. :)

Blessed...

I'm so happy that I've finally got what I've always wanted. Another chance to study. Believe it or not? Haha.. I just got my unconditional offer letter from Nottingham about my Phd application. Yippie!~ I was accepted and offered a post as a research assistant while doing my Phd. :)

I felt that I'm truly blessed with everything I have despite at times I was feeling low and lost in my life especially during the time where everything seems to be just a dream.

However, I've yet to get my accommodation but I'd sent in my application form 2 days ago.

I've booked my flights to KL dy with such a cheap fare, RM115 one way via mas. :) I'm super duper happy and I'm feeling good bout everything right now.

Hanging on the edge..

DO you ever feel like you are hanging on the edge? All that left in this world is people looking at u weirdly. I hate people who make my mood bad. I hate it. Don't try to mess with me.

I hate people who don't answer their calls when they said they will wait for u.
I hate people who said he will wait but he just don't.
I hate people who say he cares but he never seems to be around.
I hate it when he tried to give tons of excuse just to get off of what he did to me.
I hate it when he said that he cares but he just seems to forget about me.

I feel that whats left in this world is for me just to run away from everything.

To be reveal

i'm now still waiting for something to be finalized :) Keeping my finger cross. I'm gonna be away for 3 years if it happened. :) hopefully.. :)