Life is like a ferris wheel

I feel so tired. Maybe my high expectation and hopes on the one I loves constantly hurt them in the end. I think I expect too much from them, which in end if they can't make it, I blame them back for that. I feel it isn't right so I'll try my best to change. Maybe it's time for me to put myself in their shoes and think about the reason why they did that.

I was sick yesterday. I guess the reason I am sick is that my wisdom teeth is growing. It hurt so bad till I had migraine. :( Luckily, my friend was kind enough to pass me the panadol before I can settle down to sleep for about 12 hours without any aircond on. I feel much better after I woke up this morning.

It was raining this morning. How I miss those early morning rain which makes me miss the lectures and opt to stay in bed when I was in degree. I have Year 3 student lab this morning 9 am so I have no choice but to drag myself to get ready for labs.

I wish I have all it takes to complete my phd. :( A lot of hardwork. It's like cooking. A mix of hardwork and determination and knowledge in a pot and let them boil.

I might be at the bottom now. But I'm sure one day I'll be at the top of the ferris wheel again looking at the world around me.

Can't wait for xmas

Been around KL for the past few days and there are deco of xmas around. Times Square and Pavilion has setup their xmas decos.

Love the one in pavilion. Very Very pretty with flowers, rain deers, and xmas trees.

Times square has deco of ginger bread house and xmas trees..

I can't wait for xmas. I'm not sure where I'll be at that time but I know my heart is looking forward to be at home. What is xmas without family and friends,right? It's time of gathering, with lots of food, and love.

Love Darren..

Nice song from Glee.. Love Darren.. :)


You think I'm pretty
Without any make-up on
You think I'm funny
When I tell the puch line wrong
I know you get me
So I'll let my walls come down, down

Before you met me
I was a wreck
But things were kinda heavy
You brought me to life
Now every February
You'll be my valentine, valentine

Let's go all the way tonight
No regrets, just love
We can dance until we die
You and I
We'll be young forever

You make me
Feel like
I'm living a Teenage Dream
The way you turn me on
I can't sleep
Let's runaway
And don't ever look back
Don't ever look back

My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance
And don't ever look back
Don't ever look back

1st day back

It's so nice to be back even though it'll be only 5 days. Today is the 2nd day of my trip back. I'm catching up with my report while spending time with my family. My family has close friend who is indian and they are celebrating Deepavali. Believe or not, they can speak our hokkien dialect and mandarin.

My 1st bro treated me for a body massage yesterday. My sis in law, my 1st bro and me has a body massage for 1 hour. Very relaxing. After that, we went for tea time at old town coffee.

Besides that, my 2nd bro treated me kolo bee hon with fried chicken for breakfast yesterday. My 2nd sis in law made fried banana for us which is yummy.

SO happy that I'm back :) love them so much. my nephew are so cute and handsome. :) haha

back in kch

i think i must be crazy haha.. i came back to kch last minute. 24 hours ago I brought my ticket last minute and after 2 hours, I rush to the airport to catch my flight back to kch. I will be here till wed morning. It's holiday in KL today cause its deepavali. I couldn't help but miss home. I'm back to see how's my family is doing here. They are the dearest to me now. If money can buy time with them, why not? They are the closest persons to me. After what I went through, I feel my parent stay 1st in my heart. No one will ever love me and sayang me as much as they do. That's why I believe. Parent we have only 1 in our life but boyfriend, we can have many if we want. So, no one can ever replace my parent cause no one can change the fact that they are my parent forever. :)

Memory of a broken past

I can't help watching this mv over and over again. The lead actor face remind me of someone who is so dear to me. He looked exactly like 'him'. I couldn't help to be shocked and in tears the 1st time I watched this mv. And till now, it still bring tears to me. 'He' thought me how to fall in love. Although I lost 'him' forever and I have no chance to ever see him again, I still have memories of 'him' that I hold on till now. It's been 7 years and I still remember how 'he' looked like. :(

I mentioned in my post "Grief" before of 'him'.