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Just had my fyp submitted today. It's a week before final so.. there's no break for me.. sad sad.. but in a month time, i'll have all the break i want

The first paper I'm gonna have is railway engineering, which is the toughest subject this sem. It 's always bout trains, rails, load, bla bla bla..

Anyway, i'm so in love with milk tea. He mentioned that I'm gaining weight due to the stress i am having. well, i've been eating lots of meat n rice these days. hmm... n i always feel hungry. lolx..

It's my grandma birthday tomorrow n I'm gonna miss spending her birthday with her again. so sad. I miss her. :)

Anyway, i gotta sleep soon. very very tired after all those fyp stuff..

love n hugs
jen

Gossip Girls of our own..

Believe it or not. I'm now in computer lab rushing for my assignment, which I need to pass up in few hours time. I'm almost done with it. Here I am, rereading my assignment over and over to ensure that it'll be good.

But I keep on hearing those words of those girls at the back of me bitching about their friends. Yup.. Those I would call them Bitchy Girls. They are gossiping about their friend behind their back, of like " I think she's the one, who chase him cause she knows he is rich la. Why does the guy even like her? I'll ask my bf whether she is is pretty or not by showing him who she is." LOL.. Bitchy right?

Why does those bunch of girls care so much about how their friend wanna live their life. I think that they are probably being fake in front of the friend, whom they gossip a lot.

For me, if I don't like that person or think that the person has a problem but still denying them after I care about them and tell them but she still think she is always right. Well, I let her be cause it's her life. LOL.. One of the thing I would have done is trying to avoid being close to her as much as I can.

As I often said, I am who I am. I will not be a plastic to make myself popular. haha.. That's the reason why I have so few friends cause I wanna see the truth in the person and I'll be sincere to my friends as I will be. That's the reason why I'm always being straightforward and honest. haha.. If you can just see through me when I dislike that person. :)

Is it bad or good? I ain't know. I just know I'm not an angle and I am nobody to judge other people. :)

Anyway, to deal those mean girls aka Bitchy girls.. here's how...

FROM WIKIHOW...

HERE'S ARE HOW TO AVOID BITCHY GIRLS?

1. Find out where the bitchy girls hang out. In the locker area? Outside the library? In specific corner? If so, avoid that area as much as possible. Don't go over there to annoy them, because that will only lead to many more problems.
2. Learn to spot bitchy girls. This is hard, as there are many types. Usually they are pampered-looking, with perfect hair and makeup. They usually have a band of friends surrounding them. These girls are NOT for making friends. They will probably end up backstabbing you!
3. Don't be fooled by bitchy girls. They might try to win you over, but they will usually change fast, and you will find yourself being bitched about school-wide.
4. Try not to let what the bitchy girls do get to you. Have lots of comebacks ready in your mind to shoot back at them.
5. If it gets really bad, this is not bitching, it's BULLYING! So tell someone!

And remember, not all good looking girls are bitchy.. ahem **.. haha.. They come in various shape and sizes. So, beware..


AND MOST IMPORTANTLY:

If you are a bitchy girl: try to stop bitching, it's mean!

lalalalalala

I still have 1 assignment and a presentation to go before I can focus on my studies. I am freaking out with the amount of time left to go before my 1st final paper. Most of my posts are more bout me reminding myself and worrying bout my exam. I think I haven't push myself hard enough. I just love sleeping. I can sleep up to 12 hours. Now, my brain feels like bursting argh..

Nyway, gtg back to read my CSR report for my sustainable construction, which deadline is tmr.. sigh..

Stop thinking...

A lot of things came across my mind so I gotta stop myself from thinking too much.

I've got clearer picture of my stand in his life now.

At times I'm just confused bout what we have. I'm the person who prefer to see the truth in a person though I've tried my best to see the best in a person. Who am I to judge?

Action seems to speak louder than words. That's what I think. Anyway, thinking make me headache.

For now, I just wanna be happy no matter what my life will take me too. In the way to find my own happiness. :) See things positively. See the glass of water is half full rather than half empty.

missing...

my family..

my nephew..

someone who was there for me for the past few days..

my nap time..

ice cream..

hug...

my slippers.. which was stolen hours ago..

my bed...

now... struggling with my studies.. brb..

i start to feel lost again... This time I don't feel I have enough energy to move on.. lolx.. I just know I can't give up. But the problem I have now is my brain capacity is quite limited, so I'm starting to feel panic about everything. I only left less than 3 weeks to go.

People said I've been too paranoid.. But I think I've been lazying around too much..

I'm going through a phrase of life, which in future I hope I'll never return back to this time around again. Sustainable class taught me something important in life. Respond to the situations before it's too late or else, collapse happened n it's irreversible. So, there'll be no regret... In life, the saddest thing is waking up everyday n regretting for what have been done, right? No matter how hard this battle will be.. I'll be up to it.. :) just gotta tell myself over n over again.

Unbelievable beautiful song indeed.. :)

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i miss him.. argh..

he's having exam tomorrow till wed. :) all the best to him. Aza aza fighting...

I'v done my project :) haha.. But I still have 3 other assignments, which I haven't even start doing yet. I'm going crazy.. with weeks left to my finals. I haven't even prepare for it yet.

I gotta be strong.. I just need to tell myself nothing can possibly bring me down. I have approximately 3 weeks left before my finals. lolx.. gotta remind myself again and again. keep moving on no matter how hard this will be.. It's only a struggle for a month thing. And it'll pay off. After this, I'll have the freedom that I want. This is not the highest mountain for me to climb just yet, coz there'll be another higher one after this. right? :)

So, back on to my fight.. though I have severe headache today.. Guess that I've been sleeping too late

I need painkillers argh.. lolx.. But I'm kinda out of stock for it.. argh

anyway, tat's all..

xoxo
jen

A new Car.. :)

This morning, my 2nd bro told me that my mum went out with my 1st brother to buy a new car. A BMW.

Then, I called him up to tell him bout this and he asked me how much is it costs and I said " RM750 K" and he was suprised lolz..


Then, he started to ask me bout who will use my brother Vios. I said he will still use it. The new car is brought for my nephew. Then, he was a bit blur.

:)




cause considering my nephew is only a year old, how can he possible drive?



Then, I'd started to burst in laughter and told him that " It's a baby car lal.. RM75" haha.. Somehow look like a real one lolx.. :) nice right..
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My lovely 2 brothers

In 30 days, I'll have my 1st paper, which will be killing as usual. I think I've not work hard and it's this final touchdown, so I need to make sure that I will not ruin it. Thoughts run through my head especially bout how much my parents are expecting out from me.

And my bros, the compensation in education wise, I need to make this fight worthwhile. My older bros are not as lucky as me, I mean in education opportunities. No one told them that they need to study hard and how to do it.

My 1st bro is a smart guy with his own principle, which make him a fine businessman now, taking my dad's business. But in education wise, he was weak in english cause he studied in chinese school but nevertheless he's good in numbers.

As for my 2nd bro, when it was his time to go college, he did not go as my dad fall sick during his time. He's a very homey type of person as he has never likes to stay far from home. He is always concern bout me, acting like a father by trying to protect me.

I'm really glad to have them as my bros. They are really nice and their character are different from each others. Now, they have their own family of their own but they care bout my parents a lot. :)

And the woman whom they have chosen to spend their entire life with are simply the best girls out there that I couldn't ask for more. They may also not be as highly educated but they respect and care bout my parents too. :) To my sis in law, thanks for being a part of our family. :)

Rushing for fyp..

it's around 1 week more for me to go to complete fyp. Hoping things will get better. Busy Busy argh.. I gotta make myself do it. Stop being Procrastinate bout my works. Oh my, i only have 3 weeks to go for everything. why is study gives us lots of stress.. lolx

Annual dinner...

I'm gonna miss Nottingham's annual dinner. He has exam in 2 weeks time so we can't attend. He asked me to go but as I told him, I will never be a princess without my prince.. haha.. So, I'm not gonna attend it. He said he'll bring me for a nice dinner instead. But I think it doesn't matter as long as I get to spend more time with him..


Any way, it's april fool today and someone actually fool me.. *wink* Told me that he gotta go back to his hometown lolx in such a short notice. I was totally into it till he said "APRIL FOOL" argh.. how stupid can I be?

Why last semester is killing? I'm so so busy with everything.. So many things to do but yet so little time left. Preparing for final battle before I can declare that I'm gonna win my war. This war is unpredictable and it's the hardest as it's the last lol.. haha.. I'm going crazy.. ta da talking like a general lolx.. Just to make me feel mighty :)

Argh.. I miss my family at Kuching. I will see my mum in 2 months time. can't wait.. lolx.. before that, work hard.. give all I can give for this 2 months.