The battle has been won!~

Remember how hard has we been studying for the few years from secondary school up to our graduation?

Recalling back..I remember how hard I fought during my secondary years to college until I finally complete my Bachelor. I was not the best in secondary years as something happened in my family but nevertheless, I remember how I hard I tried to get the straight A's in PMR and the almost Straight A's in SPM, which is 1B in Biology. With the 1B in Biology, I'd ended my dreams of becoming a doctor. I remember that in Form 4 I was always blur and not concentrating in class which has slow me down and in return in Form 5, I was required to study all the ten subjects for the 2 years in a few months period. It was a tiring battle tough..

I have always follow what my heart tells me. Throughout the college days in INTI,where I got into the college with a scholarship for Diplome in Civil Engineering offered by them as all the tuition fees fully waived and I was only required to pay around RM100 per semester while the others without the scholarship may pay up to few K's if I'm not mistaken.

My mum has always told me this " No matter which uni you go, it's the same as long as you can shine". Therefore, I've never regretted to get into INTI although some people seems to look down on the uni. It has provided me an oppurtunity for my success and help to reduce my parents burden.

Prior to the completion of my Diploma, I applied into the University of Nottingham and I was successfully admitted into the uni itself.

I still remember the times when I count days to my exams in uni and being really paranoid about it as the days drew closer. As in the exam halls, I just try my very best to answer everything that I can and understand. Deep down in my heart I have always crave for something more.

Finally, the day I was waiting for has finally come and my results have been officially released today and I got what I wish for. A 1st class honours with an average of 79.9!~!~ yay!~ :)

I'm so happy that it is officially out and it's what I want for all along. I really thank the Gods for answering my prayer and fullfilling my wish. :)

wonder woman..

One of my idols of all time is wonder woman. :) I love her curvy feature and her long hair.

Ever wonder how outstanding a woman can be compare to other guys? In this modern world, given the equal opportunity of education and employment, women can be as successful as guys. However, in a way they still need to be dependent on their man in childbearing, decision making at home and etc.

However, there are still some guys out there who are so traditional and ego, still look down in women, Do they see the importance of women who shine in their life? Their mother who give birth to them and wife who bears their child? Some of the guys may think women in office are good for punching bag whom they can release their anger on and being push around and being blame for the problems arise.

As I come from all girls secondary school in Kuching, " SMB ST Teresa". I knew some of my seniors, classmates and juniors who have outstanding achievement. Some has successfully get into Harvard and Yale to pursue their undergraduates. Hence, we had been taught to do our best in everything and to be outstanding. And to love and serve. :)

Nyway, ESther told me that St teresa are going to have thrir fun fair this sat. I'll be landing in Kuching at 10 am and I'll be heading to the school after that. :) can't wait.

Maybe that's what differentiate us from those from typical girls and guys school. :)

a random pic..

me and milky

love em...

Do you know what's worth fighting for
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take you breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?
Does the pain weight out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Does someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and I

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul
Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and I

Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire?
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone

When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and I

Guess what?

I'm going back to Kuching for a week. I didn't let my family know that I'm going back. hehe. Cause I wanna give them a surprise. hehe.. oh ya, I brought a dress and 2 pairs of shoes yesterday and I love it. Plan to upload the pics but there are something wrong with my laptop bluetooth. sien.. nyway, 2 days more it'll be weekend again. Yay!~ :) can't wait to go out with my heels and the dress.

xoxo,
jen

Anticipated Event..

I am now pretty much excited about the postgrad Asia roadshow, which will be held in KLCC convention centre this Saturday. :) It's a great place to meet great people who can inspire me to do what I want to do after the release of my results. Hopefully, my results be out before this 29th so I bring my results along for application.

Anyway, I've been enjoying my life these days. But in the mean while, I've been doing some reading on the Internet to update myself to the outside world. :)


Mum has been busy getting ready for the next trip to KL for my convocation. Can't wait.

I've also been experimenting my cooking skills and I have someone to be my guinea pig. :P

I guess my life is more simple than the one in gossip girls. :) Cause I'm just a normal girl from an average family. I treasure life, people and things around me. I'm just who I am and I'm not trying hard to be pretty but I love clothes and make up. :)

I speak the truth and I know that sometimes it hurts but its for the best rather than faking it all up. I appreciate honest and sincere relationship with friends. haha.

nyway, gotta chao... wanna watch some horror movie :)

xoxo..
jen

Shocking news....(FROM STAR ONLINE)

Frenchwoman jailed in frozen babies case

By Mourad Guichard

TOURS, France (Reuters) - A Frenchwoman who strangled three of her newborn babies and stored two of them in the family freezer was sentenced to eight years in jail on Thursday after a trial that focused on her psychiatric problems.

Veronique Courjault (L hidden) leaves court as she is surrounded by gendarmes at the end of her trial in Tours, central France, June 18, 2009. (REUTERS/Stephane Mahe)

The case of Veronique Courjault, who gave birth in secret three times between 1999 and 2003, came to light in 2006 when her husband, trying to make space in the freezer, found the frozen bodies of two babies he had no idea were his own.

"I am aware that I killed my children and that will stay with me forever," a tearful Veronique Courjault, 41, told the court before the sentence was handed down.

The couple were living in South Korea when her husband, Jean-Louis, discovered the babies in the freezer. Horrified, he alerted the police.

The couple said at first the babies were not theirs and they did not know who had put them there. They returned to France, where DNA tests proved that they were the parents.

Eventually, Veronique Courjault confessed that she had been pregnant three times without her husband's knowledge and had strangled the three babies. The couple already had two older children, now aged 12 and 14.

Police initially suspected the husband of complicity because they could not understand how he failed to notice his wife's pregnancies.

He was cleared after an investigation established no one who had seen Veronique Courjault during her pregnancies had noticed any signs. Neither her physical appearance nor her behaviour had changed noticeably.

Courjault said at her trial that in 1999, when the couple were still living in France, she strangled a first baby and burnt the body in the fireplace of the family home.

The second and third times, in Seoul in 2002 and 2003, she killed the babies and placed the bodies in the freezer. Autopsies confirmed that the babies were born alive.

Psychiatrists who testified in court agreed that Courjault had serious mental problems connected with the idea of motherhood, but they disagreed on how aware she was of her acts.

Courjault was unable to provide a clear description of her state of mind at the time of the pregnancies and killings.

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HOW CAN A PERSON BE SO CRAZY TILL SHE KILL HER OWN BABIES? WHAT'S WRONG WITH THE WORLD NOW..

SOME OTHER COUPLES WHO DOES NOT HAVE KIDS WANT KIDS SO BADLY AND YET, THERE ARE OTHERS WHO CAN BE SO CRUEL TO EVEN STRANGLE THEIR KIDS TO DEATH AND BURN OR FREEZE THEM.

Uni Viva..

I was asked by my lecturer to go back to uni for a viva regarding the course in Nottingham. At first, I thought it was a face to face interview with the UK External Examiner. Only later on, I found out it was a video conferencing. How cool was that? haha.. Me and one of my classmates, Benedatte had a video conferencing with the UK External Examiner to talk about the overall course in Nottingham. :) It was fun. yay!~ The professor who interviewed us was pretty nice and it was really nice talking to him about our uni and etc. haha..He told us to be really frank with him as it won't affect our marks. :) And by then end of the viva, he told us we are pretty much contented and happy person. :) haha.. Maybe we had given all the positive remarks regarding Nottingham. :)

Just one thing I dislike about Nottingham is their location. It was dark at night as it is situated far from KL city. lolx. Nyway, I guess it was way better than going to UK Nottingham lol as in the end, we do get the same cert. :)

Terminator Salvation...

Has any of you guys watched it? I did. haha.. It was very nice and the actors are very manly and adorable. haha.. Especially the robot guy, who doesn't realize he was a half human and half robot. :) If you haven't get to watch it, go grab your ticket at a nearby cinema. :)

It was much better than the Drag me to hell. I watched it with him and some of our friends. That one was very horrifying. It made me in trauma, till I pinch his arm till bruises whenever the horrifying old lady come. Argh.. hated the sound system also. Made me even more scare. It was so scary although it was just the beginning until I told him and my friend " Can we go back now? I don't want to watch it anymore" haha...

Karaoke Night..

Last Friday, me and my friends went out to celebrate their results and Andy celebrate his Gawai (a celebration for the natives in Sarawak). We went for a karaoke night. It was a blast. :) I enjoyed it. haha..

The one wearing spec who sat next to me is Andy.

me and Meraini, who is from Indon. The one up there is Andy, who was so enjoyed till he danced up there haha.


My official results will be out in a week time. lolx.. wish me luck haih

thoughts of a young adult woman..

I was feeling unwell yesterday. Stomach pain. Lolx.. I was told that I looked arrogant if I don't talk or smile. How am I suppose to pretend to be happy and well when I'm not. I just wanna be who I want to be. So, love me for who i am.

These days taught me something. Loving someone is not as easy as it seem. Living up to someone else expectation is even more harder. Is happy time are yet to be over? God, please give me answer.. I want to know how far can I go. And in the end I'm happy for who I will be with. For girls, the best time to marry maybe around 25 years old not to be over 30 years old. I've been asking myself what if the happily ever after that I thought I have happen to be just an unreachable dream? Hopes will be gone, tears will be pouring but life still goes on.

I envy those couple who are happily in love with each other with their babies in the pram or with their kids holding their hands waiting in line to buy ice cream. But, I just can't imagine myself to be in that state yet. not yet until I get what I want in my life. But one day, I will be in that situation when I'm very much in love with the guy who are meant to be with me for the rest of my life. Or perhaps not. Future is mystery.. And time will tell..

xoxo,
jen

Should I go back or not?

Argh.. I can't figure out what I wanna do after my convocation next month. If I choose to continue my studies, where should I go? Should I be staying at the same old uni or going back to Swinburne for it? I can try to persuade my mum to get me a new car if I go back and all my family are there. :)
In Kuching, it'll be more fun than staying at the hostel in Nottingham, which only have quiet sorrounding. argh.. still can;t make up my mind..lolx.. nyway, it's been a long time since I've been for holiday. I can't wait to break out from this enclosed sorrounding of life. Life is boring and boring and boring. And stressful and hurtful. When will I be very happy?? When?? Why should people just let me be me for one second? Argh....

Work VS. Studies

Everyone has been asking what will be my next plan. And my answer will always be "I don't know. It depends on my results."

yay.. I have 2 weeks more before I need to stress myself out thinking of what should I be doing in my next chapter of life.

I'm thinking of continuing my studies if only I do not need to pay the course fee. Worse come to worse I'll be going back to Kuching to work.

Anyway, I never use to work until last year where I was hired accidentally for my internship. One thing I hate bout work from my internship experience is the politic problems in the company. The bigger the company is, the more politic problems they'll have. Why couldn't they just be nice to each other. I can't understand what's the use of gossiping and hating your friends at work and being not happy everyday. I hate the time waking up every morning at 7 a.m just to get myself washed and dried and go to work and to sit there for like 8 to 9 hours before the clock strike 5 .30 p.m. It's unbearable.

That's the reason why I start to understand how my mum feel everyday for the past 30 years, in order to earn money for us. That's why I told myself to work hard for my studies cause my parent pay every cent for it so I just need to do my part.

One thing about education is it is not cheap at all especially those going to overseas. I was lucky enough Nottingham has the a campus in Malaysia,with a much reduced course fees compare to the one in UK. Furthermore, there is no difference of the cert issued here with the one in UK. And Nottingham is one of the top 10 uni in UK and top 70 uni in the world ranking. hmm. So, I feel glad.. It help my parent to save a lot of money than sending me to UK. Maybe it's just for the experience and pride but what's the use of it if let say, the results are not good. Right?

Nyway, can't say much cause it'll be 2 weeks before my results be out..

xoxo..

jen

noble way of spending

I love this quote from Plato or Aristotle if not mistaken. It says " Everyone can spend money. It is an easy matter but to give the right amount, to give to the right person, at the right time , in a right way and for the right cause. It's not an easy thing to do. Hence, it is noble and laudable to do well." Hence, in a way it means that we should spend wisely without extreme or deficiency.

Hmm, it always remind of my 2 brothers. My 1st brother think carefully before he spend as my 2nd brother spends a lot and also like to help his friends by giving his money to people whom he think need it more than himself.

Hope I'm the noble one in spending. haha.. I may spend less than before but still, I make sure that I have a proper food. :)

When it comes to clothes, I'll opt for something which is comfy and hopefully doesn't run out of fashion and doesn't look lala.. I'm very much in love with the clothes that the casts in gossip girls wore. Especially Blair and Serena wore. They seems to have a very good taste in clothing.. envy.

and guess what, I'd intro gossip girls series to my mum and she enjoy watching it too. haha. my mum is cool haha..

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One Saturday..

Me and my friends and my mum had a trip through 4 states in Malaysia in 12 hours. Places that we'd visit inculde Bukit Tinggi (Pahang), Look Out Point (KL/Selangor), Semenyih (Selangor) and Nilai (N9). :) I'm just amazed by the beauty of the nature at the Japanese Garden at Bukit Tinggi. The carps are simply beautiful.



We'd also visited the Fort. :) It's something very different than what we've usually see in Malaysia.




Me and my mum. People actually tell us that we looked very much alike. What do you say?

Updates..

argh.. I don't have the complete set of the gossip girls season 2. lolx.. I can't wait to continue. Being kinda lag here due to the exam that I had. This has made me feel I'm kinda out dated. Nyway, my mum was here in kl last week. We had some daughter and mother time, shopping and dining. I'd managed to buy a dress and a black shirt for my graduation ceremony. I couldn't find the right black pants yet.

Nyway, I just got the news from Fei Yi that the exam result will only be out end of this month. So, I have another 3 weeks of fun plus a bit of worries. Haha.. My mum has been asking me to go back to kuching and find a job but in my mind, I have a better plan for myself. Only if i manage to get hold on my result slip on my hand, till then I can't decide anything.

Not only that, I'm learning how to customize my blog. The one I have now lookedso dull and unattractive. argh... But I'm very weak in computer stuff. I hate it. That's the reason why I didn't take up Electrical and Electronic. Seems like it is a tough course compare to the one I'm taking.

And there is something wrong with my computer bluetooth. I can't seem to connect it properly. So, the pics that I have in my phone can't be transferred there. That's why, this blog seems to be fill up with lots of words and not much picture. Boring huh. I'll try to get it solve asap.

nyway, 19 days to go.. approximate 3 weeks before my results will be out. Till then, I'll keep my finger cross. :)

Oh ya, I'd add some interesting blog address on my the blog that I actually read. :) Some of them used to be my classmates and they are simply cool plp out there. FROM KUCHING, SARAWAK. Who say Sarawakian live in the jungle. haha. wait till you speak to them. You'll be amaze.

till then..

xoxo,
jen

Girls are Like Cars Vs Guys are like Houses

It make sense that girls can be related to being cars and guys being houses.

As we all know that the value of car decreases as it ages, so do ladies. One of the thing that freak ladies is ageing. As ladies ages, they will have hard time to find potential partners as there are more pretty young girls, who can compete with them. As in chinese, girls are regarded as flowers. When it just blooms, all the bees ( guys ) will sorround them, but as it fade, it'll be lonely. Not only that, girls can also be regard as cars. As we ladies ages, we tend to be afraid for to look into mirror telling ourselves that it's us who we see.

As for guys, they can be regard as houses. Their value will increase as they ages. But then girls, selecting the potential guys to be with are important as like houses, there are various types of houses in market ( detached house, semid house, terrace house, apartment and flat ) Hence, to be able to stay in those houses, we also need to be capable. :)


If to be a car, I opt to be a ferrari to suit a detached house. Sexy and rare. :) haha. I feel so materialistic saying this but we as human beings, can only hope for the best and be the best we can be and all the things that we've is unmeasurable.

Unplanned

I'd finished my exam last week and my mum came over to visit me. I ain't sure what I wanna do next till my result out. I guess it'll be 4 weeks before it will be out. Anyway, I'm currently reading the art of war from Sun Zi, which is in English. :)

nyway, be updating more regularly, c ya guys.

xoxo

jen